Well I guess, sometimes it's the smallest, tiniest bits that I find so distracting. I'm trying to be this big ball of yellow sunshine bursting out at the seams, but sometimes it's hard to be like that. I see everyone around me. I see their eyes, I see their hearts, I want to open up to them so that they can find comfort in me. But some people just don't want to be trusted, and that is what makes me sad.

My grandpa is dieing. It's odd, because at moments I feel sad about this, and at other times I feel like I "should" be sad. But I'm not. I really am not. I'm not depressed. I'm not pessimistic right now. I feel creative, and hopeful. My heart is bigger than it's been in a very, very long time. I just feel, guilty. I feel guilty for being to afraid to see my grandpa in the hospital. I'm just too afraid. If I wasn't so afraid of life, then I'd be a much happier girl. But enough of my heart, I'm feeling happy lately. I need to hold onto this. I need to continue to be the Amy that finds comfort in a song, and finds laughter in misfortunes. Don't worry, I'm fine. Just feeling creative. Here is my outfit for today, no photos of me in it but it was sooooooooo comfy! I swear! I lounged around all day in comfort, and I'm feeling just fine. Please follow my blog, thankyou.

hope you're feeling just fine baby

jean shorts- mom's old levi cutoffs rolled up
sweater- forever 21
tights- ralph lauren
shoes- vintage
makeup: red quo lipstick- drugstore
physicians formula eyeshadow- drugstore
dream matte shadow- drugstore

november 29

If you've never listened to James Taylor's carolina in my mind, and swayed your head with your eyes closed before, like I have, well then you've never really lived. I swear, download download download! You don't need any psychedelics! Just listen, and live. Today was okay! Better than yesterday, due to the fact that I left my house. It's so hard finding a restaurant here without risking seeing an old friend! I know, old friends, seeing them, should be a joy. But usually there is a reason why they are labeled as "old" friends in the first place. So avoidance is a necessity. I really am just a bundle of awkwardness! I refuse to think that I am alone in my awkwardness. Okay. I'm sure there are lots of others who avoid people all the time just because you don't know what to say and when you do see them all you do is talk so that there is nooooooooooo dead air. Dead air isn't particularly nice you know. Anyways, I left the house today, had fresh air, ate a tasty pizza(and muffin) and for the first time looked at clothes without buying! Oh it's so hard for me. But, I did it. The only thing I bought today was cream for my dry hands, and breton minis. Yes, you, yes you, must try breton minis, the garden vegetable flavor. Once again, you haven't lived until you listen to James Taylor and eat breton minis. I was very cozy today, except for my shirt kept slipping up, and we all know leggings aren't cute when your bum hangs out. I had a lot of people look at me today, I think it's because they were right worried that I may fall and slip on the ice outside in my dangerous heels. But fear I not! I wanted to tell them. I can do anything! Just watch me people! Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you've got to do is call! And I'll be there! Yeah you've got a friend! Good day. Peace and love.


Top/belt/legwarmers/boots- value village/thrift store
Brown leggings/necklace- sorry can't remember the poor store!
Makeup- estee lauder pink champagne(if you have a budget, buy it!)

november 28 2008

Hello world!

Today was such an uneventful day. It's Friday, but when you are me, and you don't have friends, and you home school then Friday turns into just an ordinary day. One thing I can tell you is that today I've had a real fight with words. So many misspellings, and mispronunciations. It's not like me I tell you! I strive to be better than this, just sometimes, your mind slips, and you mumble, bumble, and no matter how hard you try you just can't bring yourself to use speeal chek.

Hope every one's day was more fantastic than mine! But hey I'm in a perky mood, sooo, life can't be that mad, sad, bad. Right. Here's the outfit for today. I paired a burgundy v neck top that I bought from my trusty superstore, and paired it with black vintage loose harem-like pants, hiked those up, slipped on my favorite beige/tan boots, and completed the look with my h&m scarf!

november 23 2008

life can be so inexpressibly beautiful.

Writing the first blog entry is always so tough. I never know how to start.. Should I introduce myself? or write my first entry pretending you already know who I am? I always feel obliged to write with such detail on my first post, which is quite silly actually. Maybe thats why all my other blogs were never successful! Maybe I spent too much time trying to impress instead of just free thinking! Heres to fashion! Heres to make up! Heres to life!



Hope it's sunny where you are.
Amy.